After the night Bella had, the only place she could even think of being was in La Push. She had relatively so much on her mind. And.. she wasn't sure if Jake was talking to her again or not. But the girl took her chances by coming down to La Push, and letting Billy, Jacobs dad, know she would be down here. She told him to tell Jacob when he woke up... and if he didn't come, well, then Bella knew that the friendship was completely over. For weeks now they'd been at a standstill. Ever since Edward came back, Jacob had had... a really hard time dealing with it. It wasn't her fault, was it? She was in love with him, and Jake was her best friend..

It was too bad he didn't see it that way. Sitting there, she curled her legs against her chest, and let her eyes wander the beach. Sitting here, reminded her of all the good times they'd really had together. Warm pops, and such in his garage... riding the motorcycles... that was all her and Jacob. The sun was beginning to peek over the crystal blue water, and Bella hoped, wished, that he would come down. She didn't want their friendship to be over. Shaking her head, she knew there was nothing she could possibly do to force him to be alright with Edward.

But she also didn't want to feel as if Edward and Jacob were like her parents, passing her off every other weekend to see the other. She wanted to be... well... Switzerland. She'd told this to them both before, though it never got through their heads. She'd figured that after they'd... killed, Victoria, things would be alright between the two of them. Since Italy, and since Victoria, things just seemed like they were getting worse, and worse. Bella had a gut feeling something was going to go down, really soon.

It made her anxious. She might have had the vampires protection, but did she have the wolves, too? Seth seemed to be on her side, as did Sam. But... Jacob... she shook her head. Leah didn't like her, either. It made her sad that she couldn't be liked by everyone, but then again, Rosalie despised her, too. So Bella knew not everyone, would think like her. Even if he did come, would she hear him? Probably not. Jacob moved around like a ghost these days, seeming to pop up, and scare the ever living crap out of him.

In that moment, she craved his presence, more than she ever had before. Checking her wrist watch, Bella would give him another ten minutes. Once ten minutes were up, she'd leave, and she wouldn't come back. This was his choice, after all.. Bella hoped he would... just come and see her. Confused, and alone for now, she laid her head down on top of her arms,which happened, to be on top of her knees. Closing her eyes, she allowed herself to just take in the smells of the beach. After all, it might be her last time here..